By Bridget Pervalle 12/15/2017
There’s some inventor out there
Who I need to encourage along
Hurry up and make a FakeLove barometer
Falling in love is where you share your soul
Letting yourself dive to the deepest depths of
Another love matter
Thought God was included
Yet my lover was a real strickster
He tricked me and reality bruised me
I take full responsibility for not paying attention
Safety measures dived in without
Oxygen or goggles
Too busy holding onto his leg
We dove all the way down down down
Disillusioned by the desire to hear
Those multiple I love just you Bridget
Over and over and over again
What was overlooked is what was
Clearly in front of me
No goggles and couldn’t see
That when I started gasping for air
That I noticed he was fully dressed
Oxygen mask and goggles tight around his ears
My loneliness blinded me and now I hurt again
On my way crawling back to God
To heal me and forgive me for
Again ignoring those warning signs
I so wanted to feel finally what real love is
Real love with no scars bumps broken
My loneliness lead to a place
Where now I can’t breathe
Holding back tears
I take full responsibility
I allowed the enemy to pretend
He pretended with awesomeness
I couldn’t tell the real from the fake one
That’s because I never had real love
I should’ve known it wasn’t real from the beginning
My heart was writing shouting “Girl, it ain’t real” while I was writing
Here I am again wanting to stay in the bed for weeks
My real love was life treating me kindly
We don’t share the same real love stories
Mines is about life embracing me
Maybe yours is Boaz finding you
About to lay down my pen and paper
Forgot they were part of my fighting tools
Got so caught up in finishing the race
That Life so cleverly roamed about
Came in and attempted to devour me
Life you took part of an artery
Was given permission to move around my spine
You biospied a part of my heart years ago
Now all I do in relationships is give an Oscar act
Yet I can assure you quite firmly that
You will NOT steal destroy or kill me
One day soon I’ll rise up again from the ashes
With my beauty
inward and outward
It is not finished
God’s doing a new work in and around me
Only God can give real love
Never once has God gave us fake love